MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!
…or back home in New Zealand…
Happy Boxing Day!
I started this yesterday, meaning for it to be a Throwback Thursday (#TBT) of last years Christmas… but since I didn’t get it posted (or even finished) on time, I thought why don’t we make it a fun #FlashbackFriday instead!
I found myself smiling back on Christmas 2013 a lot this year, as I slept under the Christmas tree lights…
…and as my parents and I watched “It’s A Wonderful Life” on Christmas Eve… the same as we did last year for our “Last Minute Christmas!”. A year ago I had the strength and energy to feel the spirit of Christmas and to want to create the ambiance as best we could, but still with no space to have friends or family to come celebrate… nowhere to put a tree, have a party, watch a movie and so on. We got our renovation done enough that we transformed the first floor loft area for one night, click above to read the flashback. It was the first time in years we had a tree even, let alone watched my favorite movie with friends! I also remember what I wished for when the night was over and everyone had gone home… because we still had to go home too!
I remember thinking how I couldn’t wait until I could simply walk upstairs at the end of an awesome night like that, up to my bedroom to climb into bed for a healing sleep 🙂 . “Next Year”, I thought… “I hope next year, that we will at last have a home to have everyone over like tonight…but completed enough that we are moved in as well, that I can go upstairs when it’s over, and that the ambiance of the season will get to exist before and after the party, not just one night, where we even have to leave our own home!”.
I never expected this recent hospital 911 and the physical medical set back that has changed everything since September! It didn’t even feel like Christmas this year. To be perfectly honest, it snuck up on me as if there was no December between Thanksgiving. What surprised me most, is that I didn’t care. I was so exhausted from everything, that it was only “mentally” that I felt sad… it was the knowing that I didn’t have the strength to feel the excitement of the season, or to even think about celebrating with friends, that bummed me out. And ironically, this year we had the space to celebrate and do it all… that is, if I had the strength to set up still.
Now, just to clarify on that last bit, we have the space downstairs… but with the set back, even the renovation has been held up again. We are still what I like to call, luxury style camping 😉 … with me downstairs, and dad staying in my room, while we work to finish the upstairs shared bath and the stairway “safety”. Until mum and I can move upstairs, there isn’t anywhere to have friends and family over, not where I can simply lay on the couch and watch those I love laugh and have fun… and THAT has been my wish… to be able to partake in that happiness if an unexpected crash ever left me in the weakened state I’m in now. It happened to soon! 🙁
Anyway, to get back on track… Christmas Eve came, and although I didn’t get my dream (yet again), of having a home for friends and family to celebrate the holidays with us… I found my parents and I having a very sweet evening in our new pad. We watched the “I Love Lucy” Christmas Special ~ And those who know me know how much I LOVE “I Love Lucy”! Hehe After that I fell asleep, thanks to the help of my 16 hr IV, to my favorite Christmas Movie mentioned above.
I don’t think I would be able to go through all the hospital, and home hospital stuff, the chaos that has been added to our every day life, if I didn’t have the comfort of our new Apt. to go through it in. For that I am so grateful! I may not have been able to have everyone here for the holidays, but I was lucky enough to get to be here with my parents and Bella… and I’ve been able to sleep under the tree every night since we got it up 🙂 … And, instead of getting behind on things… or at least, instead of feeling the heartache of not being able to communicate the many random times I have something I want to share with everyone here… even the Christmas wishes and love that is coming out a little late now… I’m going to find a way to come to you more often. If my idea works, I may even start today 🙂 , but I’m leaving it a surprise and will let you know when it happens! xo
KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE LOOKOUT!
Until then… If you celebrate the holidays, then Merry Christmas… If you don’t, Happy Holidays to you too… No matter what the tradition in your family, I hope you had a wonderful holiday with those you love. I’d love to hear what everyone got up to Christmas and X-Mas Eve? You can comment below with favorite movies?… a fun pic?… anything you’d like to share 🙂 I’d love to see. My home is your home… so please pretend MariaCostelloNow.com is like my home online, get comfy! 😉